Tuesday, July 17, 2012

The "unrealistic" mommy.

Brenton and I are spoiled.. there's really no way around saying it. Emma was an angel to us as a newborn. She would sleep for hours on end nurse like a champ then fall sweetly back to sleep for another 7 hours or so. When it came time to transition from co-sleeping to a real crib she settled effortlessly into a "by-the-book" 4 hour schedule as expertly suggested in Babywise. No crying no fuss simple and perfect. We had our evenings to ourselves, spent more often than not on the couch snuggling sweetly and watching various cooking shows and the latest episode of "Sing-off".

When little Mila came around it was quite a different story... from ground shaking, ear bleeding cries of colic to a milk supply drier than the cracked Texas dirt. But eventually after making the heart breaking decision to switch to formula and putting sweet Dovie on a sleep schedule all was well in our home. I had 2 hours to myself in the middle of the afternoon to blog, make videos, shower (I know... be jealous) and maybe, just maybe, sneak in a little catnap.

However, recently poor Mila has been riding the bumpy roller coaster of teething that has Brenton and I up at least twice a night and has diminished my 2 hour sanctuary to something more comparable to anticipating a bomb going off. I love my little (well maybe not so little) girl. But I've gotten used to my "me" time. I love knowing that I have a spare moment to relax and not worry about anything....

And then the hard slap of reality comes in with her cool head and rational attitude. I'm a mama, of two beautiful little girls both of which are under the age of two I should be so grateful for what I have! I have a 19 month old that takes a 3 1/2 hour nap plus sleeps soundly for 13 hours at night, has never bitten or hit anyone, and already knows her lefts and rights! I also have a chunky butterball of smiles that despite the fact that she is having a hard time with those annoying bones growing through her gums has the best personality and still takes 2 fairly solid naps during the day and after a little soothing around 10 pm is usually down for the night! My 5 month old sleeps through the night! How many mom's can say that!? (Not that I'm bragging ladies :) ....) I have it good. Its so easy when you have an older child to expect more from the little one. In all reality Emma is still a baby too!

I have come to this all mighty awesome realization that I should live my day with no expectations, to fully intend to have every second I have devoted to my precious little girls. That way if I do happen to get that much needed shower, or 15 minute catnap it comes as a happy surprise.


  1. This is so good. It is the "no expectations" part that is so hard for me! I know it, but so hard to do! Thanks for the post!

    1. I agree fully! It's hard to get there but once you are it's so calming and peaceful. No expectations means no let down! Thanks for reading!